Gone Gone Gone
Nearly two weeks ago I was thinking and preparing for the idea of meeting two potential male submissives for a weekend away. I had a few ideas that I wanted to exercise and I know it would have been a great opportunity to tick rather a lot off my ‘fetish bucket list’.
And yet, in less than 72 hours, I have lost both subs. I have given myself time to reflect whether I lost them because of my strident personality or whether I was justified to get rid of them;
1. The first one became involved with another woman (who wasn’t into kink). I realised that this scenario didn’t work for me as his attention and devotion sorely began to wane. To make matters worse, he insulted me to such an extent that I wasn’t in a very forgiving mood and we haven’t spoken since and nor are we likely. I am sad, I like this boy, he had potential but what is the point of putting time and energy into someone who treats you less than a Goddess.
2. The second, i have not met but spend months and months chatting to. We arranged to meet at the end of May. Last night, I asked him to take a photo of him doing the dishes naked. A very abitrary request in my mind. He said ok and kept me waiting for about 20 mins. He then wrote to me saying he couldn’t do it because he hated his body and was embarrassed. I assured him that I didn’t mind, we all have body issues (and he hasn’t got anything to worry about). I said that i am not looking at details, I just want him to please me and follow orders. It certainly isn’t the first naked picture he has sent me, so I really couldn’t understand the fuss… Plus I was very excited about getting the pic and the waiting was killing me. He absolutely refused. I told him he was being silly and what use is a sub if he can’t even follow this simple request. His response was ‘Ok well bye’. BYE INDEED.
Now I am annoyed at starting back at square one. Such a shame because it’s such a tedious job to sort the chaff from the wheat..
